This a random post of just thoughts rolling around int my head...I've started to post several times and never completed any of them, so I'm just gonna roll 'em all into one...beware :)
Sometimes life just doesn't make sense, and I just want to shake those close to me and say SERIOUSLY??? I love the people in my life, but dang...sometimes...they make decisions that I just don't get. And then want my support, which I can't quite give because, frankly, I think they might be smoking crack...well not really, but you get my point. Sheesh! I want the best for those in my life, especially "my" kids, and I know they have to grow and learn on their own, but "letting" them make bad decisions hurts my heart! I would give my right arm to save them from broken hearts and even one second of self doubt - it just weighs so heavy on me that any of them have to suffer because of the actions of those who say they "love" them! I am going to leave this topic be for the moment because I feel my blood pressure rising as I type - just gonna keep praying for this and let the Lord guide me to help where I'm supposed to and not where I want to!
Speaking of things I WANT to do...I want to get healthy...of course meaning lose weight, fit in my clothes, be more self confident...etc...but I more desire to FEEL healthy, regardless of the number on a scale, the size printed on the tag of my clothes or how I look in a picture. I feel like I've wasted so much time in a cycle of dieting, overeating, feeling bad about overeating so eating some more...well, you get the idea. I am charging towards my 37th birthday and just am NOT happy about the way I take care of myself. Yet I can't seem to find the motivation to stay on track...just not sure what my problem is!
The 5's are all starting school in the next few days and I can't believe it's already time for them to leave me. Five years has passed like a flash and it feels like just yesterday that Cheyenne, Peyton and Karcen were all in infant carriers...and now they are going to school and not looking back! Time is flying by in my life and I feel like a bystander more than a participant - praying about this...can't really blog about it just yet...just praying for now.
There are many more thoughts...just out of time for now.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Procrastination
Fitting for a first post is a topic that is near to my heart...is that weird, that procrastination is near to my heart? Well it is nonetheless...I excel at putting things off - I consider it a character flaw, but in it's simplest form, an attribute. Are you shaking your head (as most of my close friends would if they were to read this)? Let me explain...I like to do things well, not halfway, not almost done, but seriously 'all done' ; which leads me to procrastinate often because I simply don't have time to get a task done, which makes it worse and then it builds up a bigger task, well you get the idea. But do I really "not have time" or am I just procrastinating until I really don't have time.
My pastor spoke this past week about being a good steward of time, and his sermon should've come with a supply of bandaids for the toes being stepped on and bloodied, especially mine. One of the verses he shared was from Romans 13:11-14...the version below is from The Message bible:
"But make sure that you don't get so absorbed and exhausted in taking care of all your day-by-day obligations that you lose track of the time and doze off, oblivious to God. The night is about over, dawn is about to break. Be up and awake to what God is doing! God is putting the finishing touches on the salvation work he began when we first believed. We can't afford to waste a minute, must not squander these precious daylight hours in frivolity and indulgence, in sleeping around and dissipation, in bickering and grabbing everything in sight. Get out of bed and get dressed! Don't loiter and linger, waiting until the very last minute. Dress yourselves in Christ, and be up and about!"
Yeah, I know...that's some serious stuff...I thought so too...but here's where I'm at ~ I struggle with being SO busy that I don't get anything done. That seems like an oxymoron, right? Well I have time, of course, to get everything done, but I make time for many other things, like watching TV, instead of doing the things I never have time for.
Part of the sermon spoke to the concept of reaping what I sow - and one of the notes I took was this: I can't expect to sow a lot when I give a little to God....what a simple statement, but applicable in so many aspects of my life. I can't expect to have a spotless house, a skinny body or anything else I desire, if I'm not willing to do the work. I can't expect to have the life God wants for me when I won't be a good steward of my time, both in bible study and efforts in my everyday life...there is simply NO room for procrastination...plain and simple.
Ok, not so simple...but here's to working on that! Blessings to you!
My pastor spoke this past week about being a good steward of time, and his sermon should've come with a supply of bandaids for the toes being stepped on and bloodied, especially mine. One of the verses he shared was from Romans 13:11-14...the version below is from The Message bible:
"But make sure that you don't get so absorbed and exhausted in taking care of all your day-by-day obligations that you lose track of the time and doze off, oblivious to God. The night is about over, dawn is about to break. Be up and awake to what God is doing! God is putting the finishing touches on the salvation work he began when we first believed. We can't afford to waste a minute, must not squander these precious daylight hours in frivolity and indulgence, in sleeping around and dissipation, in bickering and grabbing everything in sight. Get out of bed and get dressed! Don't loiter and linger, waiting until the very last minute. Dress yourselves in Christ, and be up and about!"
Yeah, I know...that's some serious stuff...I thought so too...but here's where I'm at ~ I struggle with being SO busy that I don't get anything done. That seems like an oxymoron, right? Well I have time, of course, to get everything done, but I make time for many other things, like watching TV, instead of doing the things I never have time for.
Part of the sermon spoke to the concept of reaping what I sow - and one of the notes I took was this: I can't expect to sow a lot when I give a little to God....what a simple statement, but applicable in so many aspects of my life. I can't expect to have a spotless house, a skinny body or anything else I desire, if I'm not willing to do the work. I can't expect to have the life God wants for me when I won't be a good steward of my time, both in bible study and efforts in my everyday life...there is simply NO room for procrastination...plain and simple.
Ok, not so simple...but here's to working on that! Blessings to you!
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