Friday, August 19, 2011

Random Ramblings

I had two interesting conversations, one with a church friend and one with RC last night and both are still rolling around in my head this morning after not the greatest night of sleep I've ever had.  It's been a busy week and I'm looking forward to the weekend and spending some time with RC (of course) and just taking a breath.  Hard to believe that we are going to celebrate another 5th birthday in my daycare group this weekend as well...when they come as babies it seems like kindergarten is so far away, but then you blink and there it is.  While it's bittersweet to lose another sweet child to school, it's a great feeling to have had five years to (hopefully) make an impression on the child and their family.  God has been so good to me!

Back to the conversations...both ironically were overall about the same thing and the recurring theme of my blog posts recently.  Change. And new opportunities.  And being aware of time limitations and priorities.  Peru is in 6 short weeks and I am getting excited, nervous and maybe a little bit scared of feeling prepared, being at peace and trusting the Lord to put the right words in my mouth and guide me along every step of the way.  Which I know He will.  I just have to get out of the way.

RC and I have talked off and on about the changes the future will hold for us together.  And some of them are pretty big.  Okay, some of them are REALLY big.  But oddly enough, most days I'm not overly concerned about them.  I have such a peace about the Lord's hand in our relationship and all the prayers that have been offered up by us and for us.  I am trying my darnedest (is that a word? hmm, well, if not, it's gonna be for right now) to submit to the Lord and trust Him to lead, guide and direct us.  He loves me more than I can imagine and put RC and I together at a place in our lives where we can truly appreciate each other and learn from some of the mistakes and life lessons from our past and enjoy a loving, God filled relationship while trusting in God to iron out the details.  I still worry sometimes about the details, of course, and I don't want to make mistakes in this relationship, although I know I will, but I am so happy, so excited and so full of peace - it's overshadowing the doubts and concerns by a landslide!  I am also trusting RC to lead as I know he can and will, if I will acknowledge the Lord's desire in his heart to be a loving, caring mate to me and submit to that.  And I am actually looking forward to that.  I have prayed so long for a loving, Christian man in my life...it's just amazing what God has done to bless me!

Well I've rambled on for a bit, and do feel better about getting some of those feelings out, so I'm gonna stop.  And enjoy my Friday...and I pray all those who pass by here will as well!

Blessings,
S

Friday, August 12, 2011

This Song is Just...Wow...

Commission My Soul - click here to listen

Prayer, Preparation and Planning

Life for me has forever changed in so many ways recently and I just can't hardly wrap my head around it.  I am very fortunate to have so many people in my life to love and support me in all that I do and want to see what is best for me in the coming weeks, months and years. 

With every change in life, it would be nice to have a time for preparation and planning.  That's not always the case since sometimes we get thrown in the deep end and gotta start swimming right away.  Luckily none of the things in my life feel that way right now.  Which is so exciting and nervewracking at the same time.  You see, I am a first class procrastinator and don't always plan ahead, actually hardly ever plan ahead if I'm honest, and prepare for things I know are headed my way.  However...I am praying that God will guide me to make some changes now that will affect the future in positive ways like less stress and smooth transition into the next exciting phase of my life.

From things as simple as decluttering my home to more time consuming items like paying off some debt and making house repairs - there are plenty of things to be focused on.  I know that the Lord will make my path straight.  Of this I'm certain.  I just need to be in prayer and be preparing my heart and mind for what lies ahead and make my life a no freak out zone...not that I would ever procrastinate to the point of freaking out at the last minute or anything.  Ahem...anyway - I am very much excited about all of the things that lie ahead, some big, some small, some life changing, some just letting go of things that the Lord is guiding me away from.

I know that the Lord knows and loves me right where I'm at, and that it is His desire to see me learn, grow and go out and share His story.  I am trying to keep the focus on that.  Praying for His guidance in preparing for this mission trip and settling my heart and mind and focusing my attention to the important task of preparing my heart in the next seven weeks to reach out to the people in Sullana and minister to them.

I pray blessings on all who have passed by this post and hope that you will take time to pray as well for the plan God has for YOU in your life!

Blessings,
S

Monday, August 8, 2011

Perspective

I went this morning to get my immunizations for international travel so that I can participate in the mission trip to Peru in October.  Not a fan of needles by any stretch of the imagination, nor a fan of taking the kids with me to places with lots of people and small rooms to be confined in, I was not looking forward to this 8:15am appointment.  But it had to be done, so I pulled my big girl panties up and off we went.  To be honest the consultation was much worse than the shots...the what if's, the you may feel this, all of that...was a little overwheleming.  But the three shots were not that bad.  But they did indeed hurt.  While complaining to RC, he reminded me...Three needles hurt a lot less than three nails.  Ouch.  Talk about perspective.  I will now quit whining.  And be thankful for the opportunity to go and spread the good news about Jesus in Peru. 

Have a great day,
S

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Overwhelmed, Unprepared and Couldn't be Happier

Ok, taking into account that this a cell phone picture and obviously not the best quality photo every posted on my blog...the picture does accurately display exactly what I am feeling. 

I am overwhelmed with everything going on in my life right now.  From preparation for the mission trip to house cleaning to yard sales to my job and the list goes on. *sigh* I am unprepared to deal with it all and not sure where exactly to start to make a dent in all the little things that became big things and now are snowballing...*sigh again*.

However. I couldn't be happier!  The smile on my face over there <------------  ohhhh...my face hurts from smiling so much these days.  The Lord has so richly blessed me, and I just can't quite wrap my brain around it all.  Big changes are ahead for me...in many areas and I am praying for the Lord's guidance in ALL of it.  I am reminded of my favorite verse - Philippians 4:13 - I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me!  I am standing on that promise and holding on for dear life as this ride called my life in chugging right along. 

Blessings to you all,
S