This has been a quick week for me, it hardly feels like it should be Friday again already. It is indeed almost the weekend and thus time to link up again with Leslie at www.blondeambitionblog.com for a Confessional Friday.
- I confess that I haven't blogged this week because I've just been a slacker. I have had a semi busy week, but still could have made time to blog and just didn't. I have no excuses. Moving on.
- I confess that this article that was circulated via Facebook this week resonated so much with me and where I am right now with the two embryos we have in cryostorage that are unusable. I am so torn...they are mine...even though they are not deemed viable. I struggle so much with them being medical waste and with moving on to whatever lies next for us in our path to become parents. This process is hard. I had no idea.
- I confess that I have an appointment with my fertility doctor today and I am nervous, excited and a little scared. More hesitant than scared probably, but still. I stumbled upon this picture of my maternal grandmother, my mom, my sister and myself yesterday and it makes me sad to think we may have to use a donor egg to be able to have a child and I won't be able to pass along the genes pictured here. No, it's not the worst thing ever, and yes, I "should" be able to get pregnant with a non 40 year old egg. But it still makes me sad. We will see what the doctor has to say today regarding where we go from here.
- I confess that I miss my job. Not really the "job" part of it, but the interacting with my kids and parents (some of them) and just getting to love on them every day. I do think that I was meant to be a caregiver, a momma even...it just feels right to me, like it's a part of me that is who I am. This picture is from a field trip with part of my herd way back when and it just makes me smile. I loved seeing their faces when they did things for the first time, like riding a horse...they are moments I'll treasure forever.
- I confess that my husband is super excited about the new building we are undertaking with our church and I am somewhat more reserved because I know with a new building it equals more people and there are a lot of folks at NRCC now. I love that our pastor says we aren't building a monument, a shrine or some fancy palace, and that the new building is a tool for reaching the unchurched in the Lake Wylie area and I think that's perfect. I do sometimes miss the small church feel I had at my home church which usually had 100 or less folks a week. Our God is big and He will show me how to continue to nurture the relationships I have and use them for His glory...I just need to get out of the way I suppose. It's something I'm praying about! Here's a pic of my hubby videotaping the curing concrete pad on the new church building...you can't see his face, but he was pretty pumped...and that makes me smile.
- I confess that this Nannie is getting old. In the next month I'll go to the wedding of one of "my" kids and help another with her house warming party for her first home. It's amazing that God has allowed me to be a part of these two girls' lives for this long...they came to our house way back in 1990 and 1991 and they are grown women now, both having graduated college and I couldn't be more proud of them. Here they are back in 2001...and I still remember these goofy smiles...ohhhh, it makes my heart happy to see them so happy now.
- I confess I am marinating in this verse today...Someone on my friends list on facebook posted it...so I sharing in the hopes of encouraging one of you too! Have a wonderful day fellow bloggers...hugs and love from SC!
Isaiah 40:31
The Message (MSG)27-31 Why would you ever complain, O Jacob,
or, whine, Israel, saying,
“God has lost track of me.
He doesn’t care what happens to me”?
Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening?
God doesn’t come and go. God lasts.
He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.
He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts.
For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.
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