Thursday, December 1, 2011

Twenty Six Days

It's been a while since I've posted...and it's not for lack of trying or lack of material to blog about, trust me...it's just crazy busy 'round these parts getting ready for the wedding...you guessed it ~ in twenty six days. We've kinda kept the details of our event under wraps, not to be secretive necessarily, but just private.  And we'll continue to do that.  Just because it's the way we want it, no big production, just RC and I exchanging vows and beginning our life together with some of our closest friends and immediate family.

Recently I shared a letter with RC that I wrote LAST November that began with "Okay, if I could just straight up talk to you without fear of rejection…this is what I would say"  I never planned to mail it or give it to him, just needed to get my thoughts out...In it I discussed how I felt that the Lord had a plan for us to cross paths and I that I was open to whatever He had in mind.  I also told him how much I enjoyed his company and was indeed interested in seeing what the Lord's plans were if RC was also interested.  Funny thing is...I never gave the letter to him, but the Lord prompted me to share almost the exact words I wrote a few months later when at a crossroads of sorts where I let RC know without question how I felt and left the next step up to him.  I hadn't remembered the wording of the letter, but upon rereading it later, I was amazed at the confirmation I felt that God's hand had been guiding me to that very point.  A couple of looooong months went by without much contact other than a dinner or two before RC came to the beach in July to talk and pray with me about us making the decision to be in a relationship.  He proposed to me two months later and we'll be married this month.  Really? I mean, seriously??  God is THAT big.  I am so in awe of the way He has transformed my heart and filled it to overflowing with love for RC...more than I even understand.  Ephesians 3:20-21 is a favorite verse of RC's and pretty much sums up how I feel about the blessings God has poured out on us as a couple.  I can't ever imagine feeling so unconditionally loved and cherished ever before in my life.  It's quite remarkable the freedom that comes with that feeling and I can't tell RC often enough how much I love him, even though those words themselves seem inadequate.  I know that's a seriously mushy statement that may make you wanna hurl, but it doesn't change the fact that it's how I feel.  And I want to shout it from the rooftops that my God has so richly blessed me beyond what I could even imagine...and that He loves YOU that much too.  Maybe He'll show it to you in a different form, I don't know...but I know that He will do great works in your life if you let Him, if you pray, if you trust in Him and serve Him...It really is an amazing feeling to feel the tangible works of God.

I am so very excited that in twenty six short days, I'll be married to the man of my dreams, be given a second opportunity to be a wife in my short life and begin a married life that is focused on Him first.  I am so very blessed and grateful for God's grace, love and mercy...I just can't thank Him enough.