I stand in awe of the amazing things that God is doing in my life these days. Not that any one thing is earth shatteringly big, but all the little, although very personal, ways that He is blessing me put together make for some pretty awesome changes in my life.
This past weekend we had a wonderful sharing time at the end of our book club meeting that was very blessed. God allowed us to share our hearts, ask for prayer and become more intimate with our fellow sisters in Christ. I was truly touched by the outpouring of support that I saw and was offered and I'm just so excited to see the Lord working in and through us at CCH...just an amazing time.
I relate most things in my spiritual life in a roundabout way through music, not just in the lyrics of a song, but just a little melody line that might play over and over in my head. Reading a bible verse that's been made into a song, I'll always sing along to it as I'm reading. Surely I'm not the only one who does that, right? Yesterday our praise team sang the song "Amazed" (check out one of the many versions on youtube by clicking http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZEaD8NTrLJQ) It just really resonates with me about how amazing God is. Just IS. He doesn't have to be, nobody is forcing Him, He just loves us THAT much. I can't even imagine the love He has for us. One of the lines says "How wide, how deep, how great is Your love for me" ... we can't even put a measurement on it - nor would we want to. God offers us our salvation, doesn't force us to make a decision, but welcomes us boldly into a relationship with Him if we accept it.
I've been a Christian my whole life. Never really knew a life outside of the church. But my personal relationship with God was dependent for the most part on my parents and what I was told to do. I've always believed in God, but until the last few years, I'm not sure how much of my relationship with Him was real, like really for REAL. I have become very focused on "relearning" what I'm sure I've learned in my 36 years through my own eyes, much of it feeling like the first time I've ever read it. And maybe it is. All I'm certain of is that God is doing a work within me that I am absolutely sinking deep into. Allowing His grace and mercy to envelope all that I am, all that I do and say, and all that my future is to hold.
I've taken some bold steps of faith recently and we'll see how all that plays out in the coming weeks, but I do know that God is in control and I can do anything THROUGH HIM. Phillipians 4:13 is a commonly quoted verse stating "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" ...but it has taken on some new meaning for me. He desires to be my all in all, my strength and guide through this crazy life. It's not always easy or automatic or makes sense to me, but I know that I am taking my faith and holding on tight to it, while letting go of my control on the things in my life and letting God guide me down the paths that I should take.
I'm amazed. How He loves me.